I Wanted You

I wanted you to see my heart

I wanted you to see through my useless words

I wanted you to see my love

I wanted you to see what I had to offer

I wanted you to see that

I wasn’t going to just leave you like the others

I wanted you to see what your spell had done to me

I wanted you to see that I could never just up and leave

I wanted you

I wanted you to know that no matter what was said

I would never take any thing to heart

never mind I did

I took a lot to heart but it was only because

I thought every word you said was pure gold

not filled with venom

I thought that may be

just may be you’d mean it

I wanted you to know that I loved every thing

I could give you from my dainty heart

my heart is shattered

I’m broken

Turn in two

I thought you could handle me

I thought you could put the pieces back together that’s why

I wanted you to

I thought that may be you’d see past my tiny smile

and just hug me and tell me you loved me

but you never did

may be I was too good at it

I wanted to see I wasn’t giving up

I wanted you to see that I wasn’t giving up on us

on you

or on myself

i couldn’t

I wanted you to know me like the back of your hand

I wanted you to be able to spit out facts about me on the spot

I wanted you to say the things that you felt scared to say

I wanted you to know me.. for me

I wanted you to be able to understand

my slight shrugs and non- tight hugs

I wanted to say that I wasn’t happy with myself

I wanted you to see that I’ve been waiting hand and foot for your move

I wanted you to say go up in my shoes

I wanted you to hug me the way i loved you

Oh my God.. I just wanted you

even after everything that happened

I wanted you